Saturday, June 20, 2015

Say Goodbye

Today Sophie was out in the garage with me "helping" me get it cleaned up. For awhile she ran through the sprinklers and rode her bike. She asked several times to hear the "goodbye song" and I had no idea what she was talking about. She probably asked 20 times before I finally figured it out. She wanted to hear one of the songs that was played at Holly's funeral. In her mind it was when we said goodbye to mom. I knew it would be hard but I played it anyway. She started to cry. I cried. I held her tight as we both cried. We sat and cried like crazy in the garage. By far the most tears I have seen from her to this point. I have tears in my eyes just writing about it.

I picked three songs for the funeral. One for me. One for Holly. One for Sophie. The song we listened today was the song I picked. Holly was not as sappy about music as I am. I hope she would understand why I chose it.

"How Can I Help You Say Goodbye"
Parry Loveless

Through the back window of a '59 wagon
I watched my best friend Jamie slippin' further away
I kept on waving 'till I couldn't see her
And through my tears, I asked again why we couldn't stay
Mama whispered softly, Time will ease your pain
Life's about changing, nothing ever stays the same

And she said, How can I help you to say goodbye
It's OK to hurt, and it's OK to cry
Come, let me hold you and I will try
How can I help you to say goodbye

I sat on our bed, he packed his suitcase
I held a picture of our wedding day
His hands were trembling, we both were crying
He kissed me gently and then he quickly walked away
I called up Mama, she said, Time will ease your pain
Life's about changing, nothing ever stays the same

And she said, How can I help you to say goodbye
It's OK to hurt, and it's OK to cry
Come, let me hold you and I will try
How can I help you to say goodbye

Sitting with Mama alone in her bedroom
She opened her eyes, and then squeezed my hand
She said, I have to go now, my time here is over
And with her final word, she tried to help me understand
Mama whispered softly, Time will ease your pain
Life's about changing, nothing ever stays the same

And she said, How can I help you to say goodbye
It's OK to hurt, and it's OK to cry
Come, let me hold you and I will try
How can I help you to say goodbye

How can I help you to say goodbye

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